Sunday Sunday

What a rollercoaster day it's been. I stayed last night up with Allie, did henna on her foot. This morning after coffee and bagel, drove down to change for church.

"Self-improvement is not about bettering the social image or gaining the approval of others. It is getting rid of what is inhibiting us from becoming what we want to be- a reflection of our True Self"

- Earth Medicine, by Kenneth Meadows

Last night, as I was going to bed, I had a thought. So much of what we bring into our lives is from thought. Reiterated thought especially. What am I spending energy thinking about? This summer it has been dating sites. Have I had thoughts of all the wonderful men that are out there coming into the life of a super-cute hotty like me? No, of course not. Every blank moment when I haven't been distracted by food, or entertainment, or getting rid of my cough, I've been checking the dating sites to "see if there's anything new". And you know... most of the time, there isn't. Most of the time, checking these sites sucks my energy and makes me feel depressed that there isn't someone new, that the X person I've been chatting with didn't write, etc etc. And concentrating on how NOT great the things are, well, brings more not-great things into my life.

So in a bold move, I cancelled my accounts. The free one is deleted, and the other pay one will end when this subscription term runs out. I'm done, I'm free, enough. Back to focus on me.


I went to church today totally psyched. I'm excited knowing that soon I'll be officially joining this church. (Even though it means a letter to Mom, and not looking forward to everything that will bring up)

After church our group went to lunch. I had a bit of trouble finding the place, was finally on the right road, and turned around in a drive way. I was about 2 blocks from the restaurant when I realize I'm hearing a noise. Like a vibration that wasn't there before. Since I'm right next to the Marta tracks, I think it's a train... although none go by. I stop at the restaurant and park, and look at my tires. Sure enough, the rear passenger one is flat.

Now something I didn't tell you, gentle reader, is that on Tuesday morning someone came by my class asking me about my car. Turns out I had a big ol' roofing nail in the right passenger tire. A call to AAA and 2 hours later, my spare is on. After work drive to a place nearby to have the hole plugged.

Today I considered myself very lucky to be with my friends when this happened again, with the same tire. Of course, it wasn't really luck, it was the way it was supposed to be. A couple of kind and smart gentlemen offered to help me change it after lunch. Lunchtime discussion included tires, makes of cars, and the fact that yeah... after 57k miles on it... tires should have been changed quite some time ago. My front ones were changed about 3 years ago.

After lunch, tire changing is done, and I look at the old one. Wasn't the plug that gave, it was where the tread and sidewall meet. Apparently too much stress when I'd turned around and backed-up in the driveway. Big gash in it. I come home, and look up some places that friends had recommended, and decide on NTB. I got very good service, and feel good about the tires I was able to get for $72.99 apiece after coupon. Well, as good as anyone can feel with the knowledge that I'm $200 (after fees and taxes) more in debt than before. But it's done, my car is safe once again.

I come home and pool all my mail together. I see the SASE I sent to a juried entry for an arts festival and think- ah, I didn't get in. I start paying my bills and notice the SASE contained my letter of acceptance!! So now I get to work the Oakhurst Arts and Music Festival in October :)

All this ... and I haven't had the energy to clean the dirty dishes in my sink. Looks like I'll try to clean a couple of them, at least lower the pile some tonight.

What a day.