Dreams

I had weird crazy dreams last night. Not wierd as in midgets and jello with a donkey, but weird like the kind of dreams I haven't had for years. Stress dreams about teaching.

I dreamt that I was back in school, teaching. A bunch of us teachers were sitting around and this one guy was making a derisive comment about lack of planning and organization in my grade level. I got steamed because we did have planning meetings that he never ever came to, so I yelled at him about that. Everyone's reactions was like "whoa, stop yelling, take a chill pill". That's not what they said, but you get the idea. I felt awful about the overreaction.

Then other things started happening. I wasn't teaching kindergarten, but 3rd grade again. It was the last day of school, and I got a brand new student. Only I didn't know I was getting a new student until he was actually there and I asked him what he was doing there. Boy did I look stupid. Then the lunch that they served in the rooms, there wasn't enough to go around. Most pieces had names attached to the ones that ordered them, but there were like 4 or 5 that didn't have names, creating chaos for the ones that didn't have any lunch.

There were end of year planned activities that I didn't know anything about until it was time for them. And then, after all the kids were gone for the year, someone pointed out to me that we'd never cleaned out the desks, and all the textbooks and erasers etc were still in there, unclaimed.

Sigh. The reocurring theme here seems to be of chaos and lack of order. I wonder if it has to do with me getting a new roommate all of a sudden. I didn't really expect him to move in yesterday like he did, when he just came up to look at the place, but brought everything with him. I also didn't expect that he wouldn't be able to pay his part of the rent until he got paid at the end of the month, when I'm having to pay for it ahead of time.

Ah well, adjustments all around it seems.